I wonder sometimes how it is that people can just never be happy.  No matter how much time you spend on that person, no matter what you give up for that person, no matter what you go out of your way to do for that person, or how many times you try to figure out what that person wants or what will make that person happy - that person always ends up disappointed in you.  And it doesn't have to be anything about how you interacted together or something you did toward that person.  It's just who you are and what you enjoy doing, or even your life dreams just don't measure up.  I've pretty much given up on the idea that anyone in the world could ever truly love "everything" about another person.

I know that God loves everything about the way he created me.  But the fact is, I don't always live that way.  Are there things about my life that I love doing that God "didn't create me to do"?  For example, I sin.  Clearly God doesn't love the fact that I enjoy sinning.  I love playing video games.  Is that another area that God "doesn't love" about me?  I enjoy watching various TV shows.  Is that an area that God "doesn't love" about me?

God created us with a specific mold because he has a desire for what we would do with our lives.  How much of my life has to fit that mold perfectly?  And I don't want the crap cop-out answer: "none of it has to because God loves you and lets you in heaven anyway."  Although technically true, there is no redemptive value to acting with that mindframe.  Jesus says, "Be perfect, therefore, because your heavenly Father is perfect."  And it's also a crap answer to say: "Oh, but he says that because he doesn't expect us to be perfect - he expects us to realize that we can't live up to the law."  Again, although technically true, once again it is a terrible idea to go into an action saying, "It's ok.  God doesn't really expect me to be perfect.  I know I can't live up to the law, so it's ok that I'm doing this."

Sometimes I just don't have the energy to keep doing the things I know are what I'm made to be doing.  People say that if you're living your life exactly as God created you to be that you'd always be happy and energized.  But either I'm terribly mistaken as what I'm supposed to be doing or that's just not true.  Because every time I'm happy and energized to carry on my work, someone else is upset.